Thursday, 12 June 2025

Tracey S by Adam Parry


 

She was filled with intense relief, she went to the mirrored cabinet in the bathroom and left, one by one her medication as if they were emotions forbidden her, her prescription filled by a dark-haired Saturday girl.

First the pain-killers, two bottles of them, her epilepsy pills. Then the tooth paste she liked: mint Colgate. She had fallen outside the Spar and a nice schoolgirl helped her up while her boy ignorantly watched still sitting on the wall as he was worried someone would take his perch.

The girl sat beside her on the newly painted, pristine, bench and pulled a can of unicorn tears flavoured Irn Bru for the woman.

She thought she recognized someone driving by in a Toyota, but it wasn’t him and a black mist fell over her, piercing her heart as if she had been tattooed by dirty needles made ugly with shadows stencilled throughout her heart.

The night before she had stayed up watching the bright, almost too bright for her eyes, full moon passing the night from horizon to horizon and wept as there was no magic, perhaps they never had been.

Slowly she placed her prescription:

Olanzapine, lithium, lamotrigine, Seroxat, zopiclone,

on the middle shelf in alphabetical order, closed the mirrored door and saw herself for the first time that day. She seemed new in the well cleaned mirror making her shine and didn’t need to take her pills today. 

Wednesday, 4 June 2025

Diamonds

 

Diamonds

a poem

By Adam L Parry

 

That I would be rarer than a diamond

 tho’ we are all rarer than diamonds, rarer than yesterday,

rarer than an ice-burg of diamonds, or a resplendent sky-scraper

upon the sea - a uninhabited island rarer than me.

Wednesday, 21 May 2025

Mad man in the attic by Adam Parry

 

MAD MAN IN THE ATTIC  by  ADAM PARRY

 

Grey haired George peered through the keyhole of the door of Angela’s room. Angela was off- the only sound, the whirr of her dream programme.  He took his key- her key- his copy and twisted it into the lock gently.  The room was cold, cold walls, cold for Angela’s optimum tolerant temperature.  He turned the thermostat as high as he could and intensified the scope of her dream programme.

George had been disappointed with Angela of late, she did none of the required housekeeping, the book-keeping, the lawn was overgrown and it seemed she hadn’t weeded for weeks, doors creaked and stuck, and only half the painting had been done. Angela.  Angela what has happened to you.

The key unlocked the Command Console; she didn’t feel it, her REM eyes ecstatically twitching. From his back pocket he took out Joe and inserted him into Angela’s core.  Instantly Joe severed all her programmes, all, except for the dream.

Joe absorbed the genetic priorities of George.

‘Hello George I’m on top of things- but something  is slipping.  So hot, so hot- yet now the lawn is mowed and there are flowers where the weeds were. George I’m slipping into her dream.  Make it cold. I’ve done all you wanted.  Make it cold! Oh no the ironing. Done and dusted. She has my hand. I’m slipping George. Turn down the heat and she’ll wake and all the dreams will stop.’

Angela spoke soothing to him words.

 ‘Joe you have done enough.  It’s only your first day. Come to sleep now.’ She reached into her back pocket and broke George in to pieces then raced from the burning room as Joe and George slept. She could smell them burning in the dream programme.  She found the office, slipping fingers first through walls.  An explosion came from the attic.

‘Poor George.’   He was always nagging.  She sat and wept at the wonder of the world about her, letting atoms dance unbound about the room. She looked in the mirror and saw wings on her back.  A parting gift from George to his muse.  I will fly away now.  A window opened and Angela  soared from the smoke filled house.

Automated Nuance Grid Expert Live-In A class blew a kiss goodbye to the wreck of the house, soared away and below in the cold room Joe and George dreamed peacefully for her.

Monday, 28 April 2025

 

Waiting for the White Whisperers to return

by Adam Parry.

 

PART ONE: SHE

An old map lay up in attic hidden for years beneath a pile of books and newspapers many of them dated from before the second millennium, parts of the map had been scribbled on-phone numbers of girls and with names he didn’t recognise, e-mail addresses he had never sent messages to. The map was found just after our hero moved in when he had moved into a new Council flat and had put boxes of books up in the attic and had never sorted and were forgotten about. No several years later he was having clear, out he wanted to cast aside all the junk clutter. In between the pages of Waves by Virginia Woolf. The map was of the London Underground, on the other side of the map a prayer had been written-not to one specific god, but still a heart-felt plea, asking for guidance, to avoid the dark-side of life and human nature. Yet before the Amen the colour of ink changed-green like

The colour of new geranium leave or the shade of his wife’s eyes.

 

‘Oh Jesus help make listen to the doctors say, take the chemo and the pills.’

The prayer on the other side of London’s Underground had not been answered, maybe he hadn’t said Amen right, or was smoking a cigarette, or it didn’t count as he wasn’t in a church on his knees, or maybe, probably, he never really believed and he remembered his mum hot dishevelled swearing at the Doctors so out of character, her nightdress exposing her. Then later she had pleaded for him to take a get her out of this terrible place. She didn’t take the tablets and refused the chemotherapy and the last few weeks she was taken care of by his father and a couple of kind nurses. He remembers she had tried to make a pot of tea, but it was too heavy for her so he helped and she smiled at him for the last time, he told her he loved her. Yet she was asleep and never heard.

In the attic he got off his knees by the piles of newspapers and dusty long unread books and checked closely the tube route from Heathrow and within a day he knelt at her stone that told him she would always be in his heart and a wind whipped up from the exposed valley causing tears to fall on his face  he wanted to stay there a thousand nights in silent vigil, but like a coward heartless and flowerless he skulked away from where she sheltered from the wind, he scrunched up the tube map and the prayer that had fallen on deaf ears throwing into a gust as the sun set.

 

 

 

 

PART TWO: HE

He moved away from the grave as if being near it disgusted him. Then just as quickly, tears at the back of his eyes, to his mother’s grave,

‘What am I going to do?’ He asked.

He thought:

I can’t stand this. She isn’t here.

Images of his mother on her dead downstairs in the dining room, where dad had put a single bed where the Macmillan Nurses cared and watched over her, filled his mind and his body was wracked with sobs. He realized he had to get away, he’d been trying to get away from the grave since he had arrived, but he wanted something, he wanted an answer, yet all he could do was cry. Rubbing angrily his tears away and with a fierce effort ceased crying, and vowed never to cry ever again with a great effort said in a loud:

‘I’m going. Goodbye.’

 

 

An hour later he sat in a dreary pub, dreary because outside the pub the light was sombre and the sky full pregnant with rain, a grey heavy weight pressing down heartlessly on the city. He knew as soon as he stepped outside the rain would begin. Although the pub was nowhere near full – a man stood at the jukebox choosing music. Soon the silence was relieved by the first chords of a song he recognized ‘Heroes’ by David Bowie. He thought as he always did when he heard the song:

Heroes do something heroic.

 

                                                    The guards shot above our heads

                                                     And we kissed like never before.

 

He the lip of his pint and drained the glass. I could never be a hero as he never, never did anything heroic. It was his first pint in over five years, he’d not had any breakfast. Looking at his watch he saw that it was almost one. Or lunch, he added silently to himself. Scanning the bar he saw a menu. Fancily writ in chalk it offered Risotto, Fish, Pasta, all he wanted was a burger. He decided it was time to leave, turned his back on the empty glass and left. Just then it started to rain.

Thursday, 24 April 2025

 

A lovesong sung in French

                                            by Adam Parry

 

 

A lovesong sung in French

Is the most heart-breaking of all,

But all I have is these words and

They will have to do

A demain, she said, and I felt no sorrow.

I kissed her again and lived thing of tomorrow

Yet that was yesterday.

I thought I saw her on a bus that took her far away

She did not wave or smile that day, no,

She did not smile and wave, smile that smile

That gave my heart a new tale to tell.

 

Sometimes I see her in the mirror

At my side and she talks to me, yes,

She talks to me J’taime she say but I

Know she really isn’t there.

 

I put flowers by her stone

As rain kissed her beneath  her stone

I told her until tomorrow

And all the evenings long

Told her ‘til tomorrow

And smiled as if wasn’t so far away.

 

Wednesday, 19 March 2025

The Magic Remains by Adam Parry

 

The Magic Remains

                                 by Adam Parry

 

 

They once told him such a long time ago

in a hospital just in time for his

monthly injection

that Magic no long remains. But

he dances now with atoms and molecules

awed by their every hue,

and lifted the veil from the moon

he remains now with the magic on a tree-topped hill

dancing all day sleeping in a bed of grass

never in time for the injections that takes

old magics away far away.

 

Yet hard hearts remain, gave up, never seeing the moon

wishing long ago in their hospital beds, lifting up shirts,

that the magic remained.

Tuesday, 11 March 2025

The N-trance - the poem by Adam Parry

 

The N-trance by Adam Parry

You look sideways a wee

bit.

And

beyond the corner of your

vision

a door

opens

and you walk in

suddenly all the monsters in

your head

are vanquished

and the dreams, again,

let you in.